Well I had the scan and was amazed to see the little bean in the right place, the right size and with a little heartbeat!
We can't believe it.
Monday 16 January 2012
Friday 13 January 2012
I gotta get through this
Well, what a week it's been. Or rather hasn't. Had started to feel very positive about this pregnancy. The spotting stopped and I decided to think positively as I thought that thinking negatively would not make me feel any better should this not be a viable pregnancy. I watched "One Born Every Minute" last week. Normally I can't bear to watch as it makes me cry (mainly out of worry that it will never happen for me). I have been looking on the internet for thifty ways to furnish a baby's room. I looked around to see why freebies I can get. One thing I couldn't bring myself to do was to look up knitting patterns for babies, that really would feel too real.
I have told a few people- my two closest friends, my manager and a colleague- they knew I had IVF and were very supportive. I told them the result and said I didn't want to be congratulated until the scan.
My scan is on Monday and I can think of little else. I feel like I am in limbo, it's almost as bad as 2ww.
Yesterday afternoon, whilst at work, I went to the loo and saw what I had been dreading. A tiny amount of blood in my knickers. I stared at it in disbelief. Surely not again. I wiped and there was more of that horrid pinky/brown cm. After a couple of wipes it had gone. I went back to my desk and was about to ask my manager if I could go home early when the phone rang. It was a student (I work at a university) who had just received an email from me and didn't like the information I had given her. I was dying to get off the phone and go home but the stupid belligerent woman argued with me for 30 sodding minutes. I was ruining her career apparently - it's my fault she doesn't get good marks in her exams (I am an administrator by the way and have nothing to do with her studies). It was a conversation that just goes in circles and she just wouldn't shut up. In the end I got rid of her by telling her that she should email an official complaint and it will get passed on. I went home about 20 minutes early, after I had simmered down. I was in a terrible mood and nearly knocked a few dawdling tourists out for having the temerity to stroll down the street at a casual pace, thus blocking my urgent march to the train station.
I didn't go to work today, I wanted to rest. If it came back, I wouldn't want to be at work. I wouldn't be able to concentrate anyway- I would be going to the loo every 10 minutes. So I have been at home all day today. No more sign of the spotting, but that could mean anything. I have to sit tight until Monday. If I can.
I have told a few people- my two closest friends, my manager and a colleague- they knew I had IVF and were very supportive. I told them the result and said I didn't want to be congratulated until the scan.
My scan is on Monday and I can think of little else. I feel like I am in limbo, it's almost as bad as 2ww.
Yesterday afternoon, whilst at work, I went to the loo and saw what I had been dreading. A tiny amount of blood in my knickers. I stared at it in disbelief. Surely not again. I wiped and there was more of that horrid pinky/brown cm. After a couple of wipes it had gone. I went back to my desk and was about to ask my manager if I could go home early when the phone rang. It was a student (I work at a university) who had just received an email from me and didn't like the information I had given her. I was dying to get off the phone and go home but the stupid belligerent woman argued with me for 30 sodding minutes. I was ruining her career apparently - it's my fault she doesn't get good marks in her exams (I am an administrator by the way and have nothing to do with her studies). It was a conversation that just goes in circles and she just wouldn't shut up. In the end I got rid of her by telling her that she should email an official complaint and it will get passed on. I went home about 20 minutes early, after I had simmered down. I was in a terrible mood and nearly knocked a few dawdling tourists out for having the temerity to stroll down the street at a casual pace, thus blocking my urgent march to the train station.
I didn't go to work today, I wanted to rest. If it came back, I wouldn't want to be at work. I wouldn't be able to concentrate anyway- I would be going to the loo every 10 minutes. So I have been at home all day today. No more sign of the spotting, but that could mean anything. I have to sit tight until Monday. If I can.
Tuesday 3 January 2012
Update
Well the pinky/brown discharge seems to have gone (touch wood). It could have been caused by the pessaries (which can irriate the cervix) so have switched to back door. That seems to have worked for now (touch wood).
Don't really want to comment further, but am sitting tight.
The clinic were not really interested and said it would only be a problem if heavy/painful. I know that this is not always the case, but think it's good news that it started 3 days ago and it's not progressed to anything heavier.
So my scan will be on the 16th Jan. I will be 6+4 then. Keep your fingers crossed for me ladies. I hope you understand that I don't want to blog much at the moment.
Don't really want to comment further, but am sitting tight.
The clinic were not really interested and said it would only be a problem if heavy/painful. I know that this is not always the case, but think it's good news that it started 3 days ago and it's not progressed to anything heavier.
So my scan will be on the 16th Jan. I will be 6+4 then. Keep your fingers crossed for me ladies. I hope you understand that I don't want to blog much at the moment.
Sunday 1 January 2012
Bollocks
In the early hours of NY I noticed some pinky/peach CM, was there when I wiped only. Left the party and it was still there when I got in and this morning. Seems to have gone now but so worried.
HPT says still pregnant. Don't want to blog more about it at the moment, watch this space.
HPT says still pregnant. Don't want to blog more about it at the moment, watch this space.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)