Well I am PUPO

Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise (in case you are unfamiliar with the lingo). Not always a fan of the TTC language but I often use it as it is easier. I really like PUPO as it's a postitive way of looking at things. My least favourite term, ironically is BFP. I dislike the overuse of the word "fat" in relation to big or exciting things- it's prevalent at the moment especially in relation to weddings. There's "My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding" (great trash TV) and have heard people refer to their own weddings as "My Big Fat DIY Wedding" and "My Big Fat Blonde Wedding". I can't wait for that phrase to die a death. Anyway, whilst I don't really like BFP, I like BFN (maybe the reason I have failed to get pregnant) but only the F doesn't stand for "Fat", rather a four-letter word.

The transfer was yesterday. I got a call in the morning saying that I had one top quality blastocyst (an embryo that has been developed for 5 or more days) one good blastocyst and some others that look like they will be good but not there yet. I was told to empty my bladder 1 hour before the appointment then slowly drink 1.5 litres of water.


An hour before the appointment I duly had a pee, then I caught the train. 20 minutes before the appointment I remembered that was supposed to be drinking copious amounts of water. Ooops. I necked the bottle that I had with me, got off the train and got the to clinic. My bladder felt pretty empty. Panicking, I grabbed 2 cups of water from the water cooler. Still nothing. I sent my husband off to get 2 more, still nothing. I had one more cup and thought I had better leave it. Luckily they were 20 minutes late seeing me, and when we got shown into theatre the doctor and embryologists were talking to us for about 10 minutes after which time my bladder felt pretty full.

We were told that there were 4 blastos and that the blasto they were going to use today was the best one and was of excellent quality. They only allow 1 to be put back because I am under 35 and this is my first go- they follow the HEFA guidelines to reduce the chance of multiple pregnancy http://www.oneatatime.org.uk/. The doctor told me that at my clinic they found pregnancy rates higher for single transfers than double or triple. She wasn't sure why but said it might be because the embies aren't competing with each other. There 3 other embies that were good quality and therefore suitable for freezing. So we would have one put back and 3 frosties- just in case this doesn't work.

I got into the stirrups and a speculum was used to open me up. Jelly was put onto my stomach for the ultrasound and the embryologist who worked it pressed down really hard. Very difficult to endure when you need to pee! A catheter was inserted into my womb- I could see it go in. It was pretty cool. Then I saw my little blastocyst on the screen- I had to confirm it was my name on the petri dish. Then it was flushed in through the catheter. Was quick, easy and painless. Uncomfortable but not painful.


So now we wait. I have to take 2 progesterone pessaries daily (which I am relieved about in case having a shorter luteal phase does affect things). My husband is very excited (I am a little I allow myself) - we made up a few days ago and he is being lovely.

I am feeling very positive about it all. It may blow up in my face, but  I am happier this way. I am listening to my Zita West IVF relaxation tracks at night. It's lovely to try and imagine my little embie embedding into my womb.

I may slowly lose my marbles as my testing date approaches. I do my test 16 days after egg collection and my OTD (Official Testing Date) is 30th December. I have a feeling that if it doesn't work my AF will arrive early as I have a short luteal phase. If this hasn't worked I will get well and truly sloshed on NYE on Prosecco that we have left over from the wedding. Luckily I will be kept very busy visiting family over Christmas. We go away on the 23rd and return to London on the 29th- the day before OTD. I will take some tampons up with me in the hope that I will not need them.

Please send me sticky vibes!